I've always had control issues. I hate to sit in the passenger seat, both figuratively and literally. I don't know why I always want to be in control, I mess up so often that you'd think I'd want to let someone else be the responsible one.
These past few months have been a remedial lesson for me in relinquishing that power. I know God will supply all of my needs according to His riches in Glory, but I want that on my timeline and not His. I am learning to not rely on our income, because that is not always promised. I'm learning to accept help from others, when I'm the one normally providing the help. I'm learning that my plans and timeline don't always line up with God's. I'm learning that I really need to let it go and trust. God wants what's best for us, even though sometimes we don't see it as what's best. Perhaps, we see it as failure. But His perspective is so different than ours.
I'm learning each day. I'm a work in progress.